i have had a really. hard. week.
note to self:
do not attempt to potty train your first born son
during the same week
that you are switching anti-depressants.
i have never cried so much about the stupidest things ever.
examples:
boy peed his pants.
a car won't let me in the other lane
forgot my ID at the grocery store
boy peed his pants again
we have no money
i'm dizzy
husband looked at me wrong
my kitchen knife won't cut the squash
my headache
boy won't nap for me
etc...
etc...
etc...
i hate depression, and it's taken me years to realize that i truly suffer from it.
but watcha gonna do?
get on some good meds, that's what.
i did however finish this book this week,
and it lifted me out of emotional craziness for an hour each night.
the red tent
if you are a woman, you need to read it.
in short, it describes how women in biblical times spent their menstruating days in a red tent.
(maybe this is why God made women's cycles emerge together
after being around each other for a while?)
these woman truly celebrated their periods as a sign of fertility and womanhood.
they spent three days in the tent relaxing, gossiping, and eating.
it was a break from their laboring lives.
as i started my period today after this week from hormone hell, i almost cried again, but then i thought about how grateful i am for these crazy hormones that heighten and drop my emotions like a roller coaster.
i am a woman. i bleed for a purpose. and that is to give life.
now if only i could take three days off to eat, play, and chat with my sisters.
only instead of a red tent, can we go to a spa?
who's with me?